Day 12: Evangelion Quote (show about depressed teens)

Evangelion: "Hideaki Anno, the director of the anime series, suffered from clinical depression prior to creating the series, and the psychological aspects of the show are based on the director's own experiences with overcoming this illness. " -wikipedia.org Yeah, it's a great show. Check it out on youtube or something; it will change your life. I liked it a lot cause it's now your silly Disney Channel "peachy-clean" type of show. And it's not all wrapped up in the end like most 1-hr Fox shows end up. I liked it cause it showed life as it is: sad, lonely, and not always happy. And I know that sounds depressing, but yeah, the director was depressed when he directed this. The show's three teens are also my profile's picture. ---------- What Do You Think of this Quote?---------------- I usually don't do this, but because it's such a great quote from such a great person, I thought it was worth sharing. (I've also repeated it in my previous blog) Anywhere can be paradise As long as you have the will to live After all, you are alive So you will always have the chance to be happy -End of Evangelion

To me, it means that as long as you live, you decide what kind of world you want to live in. You can dwell in sadness at all the pain in the world, or you can better yet dwell in happiness, noting that the world still stays the same. The only thing that's changed is your "paradise", which all begins in the mind. Maybe I'm just stupid or something, but that's what I got out of it.

WHAT ARE YOUR GUYS' OPINIONS? Comment below....

Day 11: (Part III) I Don't Blame Anyone

I don't blame anyone for trying to kill myself, and I realized that this is the best way to live. And I say this because I know that the majority of people who killed themselves did it out of anger towards another person. I don't want that to be me. Therefore, I don't blame my mom for my unhappiness. Although I do agree what she said was completely destructive, I don't blame her for my choice of attitude. My mother is not to blame for my sorrow; I chose to be sad myself. I chose to look at my lack of relationships, my dwindling friend relationships, my persona, all in a negative light, and ultimately it is my fault for my attitude. And right now as you're reading this, and especially if your going through a "tough time" right now, I know this message won't come off as nice because it's completely self-condemning, but it's true. I know for a fact that this is true; no one is to blame for your unhappiness because you choose your attitude by looking at the things around you. As soon as you realize this, you release the power you think other people have on your life. No longer will you mope about how depressed your mother makes you feel, rather you will see that you had the power all along to be whatever you wanted. -------------- Lesson 1: Choose to Live No matter how much shit life throws at you, it's up to you to be happy. No one else can choose how you're gonna live your life for you; not your bitchy sister or your fucked-up friends. They may cause you sorrow and reason to cry, but you have to be strong and live. Choose to go on living the same as you were before; happy and carefree. The quote below is from one of my favorite shows and was created by a man who went through severe depression while drawing out the episodes. Most of the show has to do with depression and anger, which is why it's one of my favorite shows. He is the quote that reflects the final part of the movie... Anywhere can be paradise As long as you have the will to live After all, you are alive So you will always have the chance to be happy -End of Evangelion

Day 11: (Part II) Will to Live

Will to Live The moment I walked back into that house, I realized that I had made the most important decision of my life. Now that I am older and wiser, I realize that suicide is a very sporadic act 90% of the time. This means that the person usually acts on impulse triggered by a sudden wave of sadness/anger. It usually is a reckless decision. With that being said, I'm glad I chose to live. I didn't know this at the time, and I was extremely upset then while crying on my bed, but I'm very thankful that somehow I walked back into that house. Because if I didn't walk into that house, I would've been hit by a car and killed. And I would have become just another sob story on the news about a poor depressed teen boy who killed himself at 15. And the next day no one would care. And my friends would grieve for me for no more than a week and go back to their track practice and music lessons. And my parents would feel shame and misery for their whole lives for a son they lost. And I would be so unsure of where I am, what happens after I die, all those questions you figure out while you're still living. And I wouldn't be able to live out my life dreams cause I killed myself on that fateful day. Everything would amount to one thing: shit. Absolute pure shit. Nothing would change in the world, and nothing good would come out of it. So, I guess I should thank my 15-year old self. ----------------- I realize now that when I stepped back into my house and onto my bed, I had chosen to live. I had chosen to prevent all the misery that would come from a short-lived life. And from choosing life, I gave birth to peace and happiness. I now have peace with my family. I've come to realize that not everyone can achieve satisfaction, and that when two people are arguing and want their way, the only way to achieve peace is for one person to let their stance down. It's easy saying this, but it's extremely difficult to do. Cause some people can be assholes sometimes, and you just have to give into them. I also have a lot more happiness, and this is more on my part. And I want to make it crystal clear that I do NOT blame my mom for my unhappiness; that will be adressed in part III. But, anyways, I have a lot more happiness now. Part of it having to do with releasing my anger towards my family. But, most of which has to do with feeling good about life. I just now no longer want other factors in life to drive me down; I want to live my life. And that's something everyone has to realize; that your will to live is the most important thing in life. And that you shouldn't let anyone, no matter how nasty and cruel they get, bring you down. You can choose to live, and you can choose to die. It's all up to you, cause no one can choose for you. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Conclusion: Quotes I like Anywhere can be paradise As long as you have the will to live After all, you are alive So you will always have the chance to be happy -End of Evangelion The difficulties of life are intended to make us better, not bitter. ~Author Unknown